On April 26, it was the one-year anniversary of The Lemonade Tour. It’s hard to believe it’s been a full year since I left LA on the journey of a lifetime. For one, the tastes, smells and experiences feel so fresh, like they were three months ago. But in thinking back to the person that I was when I left, it feels like a lifetime ago.
I’ve said it like a million times, but solo travel is the pressure cooker of transformation. This trip was a way too ambitious undertaking. I envisioned a giant loop around the U.S. with a few weaves into the middle part of the country. I’d never recommend anyone do this kind of a trip as their first road trip. Tackle a region and then think about taking on a scope as large as 13,000 miles. It was exhausting to be the only driver, to take care of Linky and keep him content, find food and lodging and have fun and experience everything we could with a limited time and budget. Actually, to a certain extent I did have time. But I was trying to get to places where I knew people and could stay with them. It would help me feel less alone and also help with finances.
Since we returned at the end of June, we continued the trip for another four months by living in different sublets across Los Angeles. From living in a multi-million dollar house beneath the Hollywood sign to a short term in a non-dog friendly building to a hipster creative space in Silver Lake to a shared apartment with an actress, the adventure continued. I was afraid to settle. Would the demons return? Did I belong elsewhere? Could I make it this time?
I decided thatI could make it anywhere I wanted to because I’d driven through 33 states for 13,000 miles with a wealth of adventure under my belt and not a single speeding or parking ticket. I reminded myself to remember who I am and that I can literally do anything I put my mind to.
This inner steel has given me the strength to make necessary changes, finish writing projects and push myself out of my comfort zone. I’ve built a little sanctuary for Linky and me that’s peaceful, productive and inspiring.
The last vestige is dating. A reiki master informed me that Linky protects me from single men because he doesn’t see the need for me to want anyone else in our lives. I suspected as much. We had a talk, but he doesn’t seem to be wavering. But there will be a man and he’ll be here soon and then there will be a whole new set of stories to share.
On the day before the anniversary, I began editing The Lemonade Tour. On the anniversary, I took this monkey to where it all began (Malibu). This is where I realized I wanted to change my life on January 1, 2016 and jumped for the first time. Just four months later, I’d decide to do the trip of my dreams and sell almost everything I owned. There was no other place I wanted to be.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s that we’re all full of infinite possibility. If you can dream it, it can happen. It may not happen right away, but it all starts with a thought and a belief.